For a very long time I’ve wanted to try and share my experience with polyamory, since it seems to be a fairly common practice in the BDSM “community.” I feel like many people who are new to BDSM are going to find that many potential partners already have partners of…
Gone Quiet
I haven’t written in a while, and I haven’t been particularly chatty on social media either. I’m doing better than I was, but I’m expending all of my energy on the things that are vital to me right now. Self-care, school, and Professor Chaos. I did really well in school…
Ride’em Cowboy
A few weeks ago Chaos tried to fist me again. It was marvelous; she’s getting pretty close to being able to fit her whole hand inside me, I told her that I had stretched myself out with Dita (my biggest and most realistic dildo) ahead of time. When she told…
As close as it gets: Dottie Gets Spanked
I’m taking a film criticism class this quarter, and for my mid-term I ended up watching what is possibly the best film-handling of BDSM I’ve ever seen. Dottie Gets Spanked explores the development of kinky feelings in a young boy in an insightful and sensitive manner. It’s a short…
Almost an embarrassing ER story
I might be becoming a little bit of a size queen. Oh, god, that makes me blush just to type…. Anyway, I’ve got a number of anal toys, and it’s pretty common for me to have something in my ass when Chaos and I are having intercourse. We’ve also been…
Things to look forward to.
Things are more or less looking up for me right now. I’m on a better mix of meds which has once again leveled out my mental state. It’s not perfect, but its definitely at a place where I can function much better than the last six months. School is going…
Another Year
I’m tired of writing about my mental illness. I’m tired of finally having the urge and energy to create something, only to find it has been so long since I’ve updated my blog that (due to it’s autobiographical nature) I feel obligated to do a recap what I’ve just partially…
Proper care for your boytoy
I’m not doing well. The process of tapering off of Effexor is draining all of my energy, and at the same time my anxiety and depression are riding high. What really bothers me about being so broken is that my lack of emotional energy, my low threshold for any type…
What’s going on
I want to write. I really do, despite how infrequently I have been updating. There are things I want to write. And I’m going to. But I feel like I need to do a quick update on what is going on with me first. A little over two months ago,…