I’m not quite sure where I first heard that eating ass was a “thing,” or when I first wanted to do it. I’ve always been orally fixated. Early on in my development of the concept of sex, I latched onto the idea that being proficient at oral sex was key…
Puppyboy
Chaos and I have been doing a lot more puppy play recently than I ever suspected I would engage in. It started with, I don’t know, her commenting that I was like a cute puppy, especially when my hair would flop over my face. She started using “puppydog” as often…
Gone Quiet
I haven’t written in a while, and I haven’t been particularly chatty on social media either. I’m doing better than I was, but I’m expending all of my energy on the things that are vital to me right now. Self-care, school, and Professor Chaos. I did really well in school…
Ride’em Cowboy
A few weeks ago Chaos tried to fist me again. It was marvelous; she’s getting pretty close to being able to fit her whole hand inside me, I told her that I had stretched myself out with Dita (my biggest and most realistic dildo) ahead of time. When she told…
Another Year
I’m tired of writing about my mental illness. I’m tired of finally having the urge and energy to create something, only to find it has been so long since I’ve updated my blog that (due to it’s autobiographical nature) I feel obligated to do a recap what I’ve just partially…
Proper care for your boytoy
I’m not doing well. The process of tapering off of Effexor is draining all of my energy, and at the same time my anxiety and depression are riding high. What really bothers me about being so broken is that my lack of emotional energy, my low threshold for any type…
“Butt stuff” for Boys (and beginners)
I have an amazing girlfriend, who sometimes fucks me in the ass. The act is not only pleasurable in itself, but also a deeply erotic fulfillment of long-held fantasies. I’m not quite sure exactly when I began to experiment with “Butt Stuff,” but it was at some point in my…
Luckiest Boy in The World
I really am the luckiest boy in the world. I’m almost tempted to leave it at that, because I cannot possibly come up with the words to describe how wonderful and amazing Chaos is. I’m such a sappy cheese-bucket when I think about her that this whole post will probably…
How do I beg?
I’ve learned a lot from porn over the years. I mean that. If you can look past the commodity that mainstream porn is trying to sell you, there is a lot of information about sex and eroticism to be gleaned. There is even more if you look at the work…
All Yours
My mouth is not my own. When you make love to me, I lose control of what I’m saying, what I’m thinking; all of my cleverness and verbosity flees my brain as if your fucking is a natural disaster. Which is not to say I do not mean what I…