Chaos and I have been doing a lot more puppy play recently than I ever suspected I would engage in. It started with, I don’t know, her commenting that I was like a cute puppy, especially when my hair would flop over my face. She started using “puppydog” as often…
Proper care for your boytoy
I’m not doing well. The process of tapering off of Effexor is draining all of my energy, and at the same time my anxiety and depression are riding high. What really bothers me about being so broken is that my lack of emotional energy, my low threshold for any type…
Luckiest Boy in The World
I really am the luckiest boy in the world. I’m almost tempted to leave it at that, because I cannot possibly come up with the words to describe how wonderful and amazing Chaos is. I’m such a sappy cheese-bucket when I think about her that this whole post will probably…
How long?
After an especially long posting-hiatus, I’ve got a million things to tell you. Many of which boil down to “I’m so so in love with Professor Chaos!” It’s Sappy, Goopy, Post-lyrics-on-Facebook, Love. Wherein we hold hands in public, kiss in elevators and generally just make everyone else around us sick. I…
Goodbye Kiss
Chaos has gone home for the holidays. *Sigh* We spent most of the weekend together, but on Tuesday we both had much to do. By the time I got to her apartment we had only a little time before it was time to head to the airport. I did get to give…
Unpoached*
I’ve got kinda really big news that I‘ve been keeping under my hat. I hope those of you that read regularly aren’t upset that I didn’t spill these beans right away, I have some reasons which I’ll get into in a moment, but I won’t keep you waiting any longer.…
I miss her
I miss Tavi. This is not unusual for me, indeed it seems I spend more time pining for her than with her. Sunday she went to a wedding, so I didn’t get to see her. Friday we had a date planned, but she got food poisoning. And the Sunday prior……
Happy Birthday Ma’am!
It’s Tavi’s birthday today! In honor of this momentous occasion I just want to send a quick birthday message to her here. Happy birthday Ma’am! I’ve been so blessed to have been part of your life this past year. I hope the coming year brings you joy and happiness, and…
Meeting Dita
About three weeks ago I took advantage of Tantus’ closeout sale and bought myself the Tantus Hank. This is the second time I’ve gotten a great deal from Tantus, and I definitely recommend keeping an eye on their sales if you’re an impoverished pervert like myself, but still want high…
Bitter Tears
I do try and portray the reality of my experiences without cherry picking or sugar-coating too much. I think it’s important for there to be portrayals of BDSM (especially F/m) that highlights the fact that it is a relationship, in the real world, between two imperfect individuals. It can be…