I’ve learned a lot from porn over the years. I mean that.
If you can look past the commodity that mainstream porn is trying to sell you, there is a lot of information about sex and eroticism to be gleaned. There is even more if you look at the work that amateurs put forth; the boudoir photos and selfies, artwork depicting impossible scenarios, and enough erotica and fan-fiction to dwarf the library of Alexandria. It may not all be an accurate representation of sex in real-life, but it tells the story of what people think is sexy.
I’ve learned a good deal about what turns me on, and I’ve said before that the whole realization that I’m submissive was kicked off by an erotic picture that I just stumbled upon one day. I could also credit internet sources, some of them pornographic, with a good deal of my sexual knowledge; like how to use my tongue and fingers effectively; as well as tidbits, like making sure that I keep my fingernails trimmed and clean. Even the expectation that sex should involve more than PIV intercourse if I want my female partner to be satisfied comes from things I’ve seen and read online. What I never learned online, is what noises to make during sex, and how to beg.
That men in porn don’t make enough noise in porn is a common lament of women. Meanwhile, often men will complain of the opposite; that the moaning and grunting of men in pornography is a distraction and off-putting. Either way, men in most of the porn I’ve seen don’t seem to beg for it.
Chaos has not expressed dissatisfaction with my vocalizations during sex. She is very happy with the sounds I make when she fucks me, even more so when she’s fucking my ass. Nevertheless, I feel that on occasion when she’s asked me to beg for it, that I’m not doing as good of a job as I could. I want to make it clear that in the moment I am her eager little slut-boy: in my own head I am a toy for her enjoyment, whatever that may be.
Usually all I can manage is a few plaintive sounds, some “please’s,” and some “fuck me’s.” I want to better communicate supplication, but I’m not sure how I can. That’s why I bring it to you dear readers: How do I beg?