I’m not doing well. The process of tapering off of Effexor is draining all of my energy, and at the same time my anxiety and depression are riding high. What really bothers me about being so broken is that my lack of emotional energy, my low threshold for any type…
Luckiest Boy in The World
I really am the luckiest boy in the world. I’m almost tempted to leave it at that, because I cannot possibly come up with the words to describe how wonderful and amazing Chaos is. I’m such a sappy cheese-bucket when I think about her that this whole post will probably…
Bitter Tears
I do try and portray the reality of my experiences without cherry picking or sugar-coating too much. I think it’s important for there to be portrayals of BDSM (especially F/m) that highlights the fact that it is a relationship, in the real world, between two imperfect individuals. It can be…
Unchained
I’ve mentioned on twitter that the lock to my collar ended up triggering a previously unsuspected nickel allergy. It took me about a week to figure out what was going on, and start looking for solutions. The first thing we tried was coating the back with nail polish. The cheap…
Collar’d Me
I’m way behind on posting about this, but I’ve been exhausted this week and couldn’t quite bring myself to put it together. It’s exciting news, but the story is a bit anti-climactic. If you follow me on twitter you already know, I’ve been wearing Tavi’s collar for almost a week now. For…
My Birthday, her toy.
Friday was my twenty-fourth birthday. Honestly it was the best birthday I can remember having. I although I’ve got a bit of a stomach bug that’s been going around. I spent the better part of the day trying to get over than so I could enjoy the evening with Tavi. I…
More role conflict
I’m not sure if this is going to be interesting at all, it’s more of the same old thing I’ve been writing for a bit, however, if down the line I write about doing some things, I want my readers to know that I’ve been doing all the requisite consideration…
Fetishize me Captain!
I’m sure you’re all aware that a sexual fetish is receiving sexual arousal from a specific object or situation. If this attraction causes psychological distress it’s a paraphilia. Generally I notice a “kink” is how people usually refer to a little something extra they like in their sex, (oh I’m just…
Treading old ground
So DishevelledDomina is at it again, previously she did a series of interviews of submissive men, and now She’s interviewing Dominant women. I would say that I caught the blogging bug from her, and I got my first taste when she interviewed me. However, I was working nights at the time, and I got her list…
Freedom?
You know what I kink on harder than pegging, or spanking, or biting, or gingers? Ownership, and symbols of ownership. It’s hard to explain, My masochism seems to me a relatively innocuous kink compared to the desire to have someone else control my autonomy. Which is why I found it easier to explain my…